Countdown....

it's kinda magical how a song and some memories when they kinda click with each other will press a button in you and initiate something u thought it's hard for you to do so seamlessly and unstoppable to the point it embarrass you..but for me,it was a relieving and releasing experience nonetheless and really welcomed it...it wasn't a really happy feeling though..more of like terharu and helpless...
recently...some of my actions are kinda questionable to my own logic which i realize without needing people to tell me...yeah,i know this path will end up with me getting hurt either way most probably, but i kinda made my resolve earlier and i plan to fulfill my primary objective ..i suppose i just want to see this to the end

i realize someone very close to me who before this seem to stuck at a junction and kinda unwilling to take her turn has start to take her steps again..i'm glad that that happens coz it's about time and this change is inevitable...but somehow i feel albeit a little sad...i suppose it's similar to the feeling of not wanting to let go that person who you kinda have sheltered but it something that must be done...i suppose it's similar to when ur parent heave heartedly let u go out of the house and lead ur own life outside..i dunno...but either way...i'm happy for you,truly

on a different note,i've busied myself today packing my stuff...yeah,it's time for me to start remove my physical presence from this country but damn la..so lazy..well,i don't have much stuff,actually if i just dump my stuff into the boxes it'll just finish very quickly but somehow i've this urge of arranging my stuff systematically,basically make sure everything in the same category are together,argh!! it's so taxing arranging my stuff...and now i end up with less space in my room..not more...well,frankly i am only half way done i think..i will continue this process tomorrow and hopefully my room will be more empty..haih..malasnya...dunno why sudenly become so..compulsive