Stuttering steps

It's 2.30 am in the morning and i'm still struggling to keep myself awake, mind you it's not that i'm currently studying(well,hopefully soon) but actually waiting to launch an attack in the online game, Utopia. Why if any ask do i have to wait, well..basically my army wil return at around 4 am then only i can send my troops out. Doesn't make any sense? don't bother urself..hahaha

The same trend has repeated over and over again..everytime exam draws near, i'll play games more often. This is a serious case of denial. Probably at the core of all this is that i'm still in denial of being an adult, probably stuck in my own warped time zone..lol

Finally met Maryam's brother-in-law...well, sing the word met would be exaggerating as I only saw him, didn't even talk or watsoever..heard few stories about some of the family affair in this case...and i wonder how or what is the feeling like? the aura that surrounds... Putting myself in a hypothetical similar position..i don't think i can bring myself to let my brothers call their once female friend as 'kakak ipar'..i don't know...just felt wrong..hahaha. But then again the 4 of us kinda understand and adapted the concept of each of us have our own life...i guess each of us wants our own space and identity, although it kinda makes us a bit apart aside when we're home..i wonder if this has got to do wth my habit of introducing my brothers to do world..making them feel like they are under my shadow and wanna get out of it..hmm...

Had a chat with CT the other day, i felt for her..in a way i kinda understand her position...wish i could say anything more to her, but i tihnk i'm losing my skills with encouraging words..hahaha..or maybe i've offered to much of them that it kinda felt to me nowadays as any more encouraging words would be kinda..hipocrit...talk about a disillusioned man..hahha , but yeah..i told her, a lot of guys would fall for her charms if she wants to....and yet....*confidential
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In few hours time, shan karupin would be leaving for NZ..man.....gonna miss her.... among the person that i know who appreciate ppl around her well, regardless of their personality... she likes ppl for their differences...and she basically full of energy, and energizes ppl around her..i wish her well for her studies in NZ

and lastly... i know recently i've taken a few unknown steps, which is why i'm kinda stuttering now..definitely in a new territory for me..but even so...my intentions are true, and i hope to see where can this go..:)...so i suppose...i should say, Hi, i'm danial, i am quite straight person..definitely a straight guy(for now..LOL), can be boring for always stating the obvious, not creative words..but yeah,nice to meet you
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Definitely being sleep deprived is getting to me now..