jolted

today...i was jolted right to the core of my being,my conscience, my spirit... reminded me that i'm not doing enough yet..and in a way..i'm kinda scared...am i fit enough to be where i am...am i cut out?and with how things has been going on...i know i can't fail now... i am kinda the sole torch bearer now..probably the problem now is i 'm trying to do things on my own terms which doesn't work that way in this world, how things are done is determined by the society..oh well...i suppose am kinda lucky that i got this now rather than later...and i do have to admit it's partly of my own undoing..always distracted by either the things around me or far far away..Dan,wake up!!